Schizo Dissident 1995
Ward round – doctor’s round the bend
I extract myself from the u-bend where I’ve been hiding
‘When you do eventually speak you’re kind of florid
but not agitated or manic
low mood but a little bit euphoric
even euthymic
in a weirdly quiet and passive way
a modulated tone while still remote
Night nurses say you’re not sleeping
but day nurses can’t wake you up
We can’t work out your sexuality
And you’re writing…
We’ve no idea
Another week in the psychiatric slammer!’
My only salvation is in pen and paper
and Robert Dellar
the commie advocate who works for MIND
a good friend of mine
and ever loonies’ supporter
‘Got you on a renewed Section 2 Deb,
highly dodgy, no grounds for a Section 3
the doctor’s looking guilty
says your Patient’s Council is a sign of mental illness Deb
that I recruited you for
Says here “GP referral” – change him –
Basically a total stitch-up’
I am a bit high it’s true
but I’m used to managing that
you’d never notice cos I’m still and quiet
and I can sleep
self-caring fine as usual
and turning up to work
getting no complaints
but my reality does not ever equate with psychiatry
however therefore ergo I am sectionable at any time
for supporting the hammer and the sickle
for thinking aloud in poetry
Robert Dellar the champion of all us heroes
immediately writes a legal letter
Gets our solicitor friend Rod Campbell-Taylor on the case
Clever cocktail sticks and dexterous screwdrivers
to unpick these skillful fetters
There’s cold sweat on my face
The next ward round I get released!
After 3 weeks
Back to my day job at Survivors’ Poetry
breathing slightly more freely
Congrats in the cafe at lunch
Do I disturb you Mr Psychiatrist?
Sorry but that’s just Me!
Maybe you could try and draw a picture of whatever it is you see?
Present it to the faculty?
Cos it’s a mystery to everyone else
and you certainly ain’t here to make friends
Maybe you’re on commission?
I’m glad I’m paying for your next vacation
I’ll send you a postcard!
Byee!
By Debbie McNamara